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Soul Whispers ~ Mother’s Day . . . The Gift of Awareness

Sunday, May 10th, 2009

Where is my breakfast in bed?

Morning clouds have cleared and a soft blue sky break through surrounding me with wide open space. I take a long and deep breathe, filling my lungs with the warm morning air of Texas.

It is Mother’s Day . . . my day because I am a mother too. All is quiet in the MacKenzie home . . . my husband is golfing and my son is still sleeping. In preparation for a big move to the city, we have found new homes for each of our pets (more on that later). So, not even a happy tail or purring cat are here to wish me Happy Mother’s Day . . . and by the way I think, “where is my breakfast in bed”?

With this thought I feel a familiar unappreciated sense starting deep in my hips and gurgling upward. The picture in my mind growing clearer and more vivid of the familiar commercials with loving children bursting through the door to mommy’s room with breakfast on a tray. “Wake up mommy” they chime in unison with father lingering behind in the doorway sporting a mischievous grin. So! Where is my breakfast in bed? Don’t you love me and appreciate all the many motherly things I do for you? Now the feeling has gurgled so high I can taste the bitterness of the emotion. I’m not loved! I’m not appreciated! Wow, how quickly that one moved into my senses. I could actually see the commercial hear the loving words (that I’m not hearing right now) and feel what the emotions feels like of not being loved this way. Not to mention the taste – oh the awful taste of not feeling loved.

“STOP! “ I say audible only to myself. “This doesn’t feel the way I want to feel”.

So I ask myself, “Is it true? Is it true that my family doesn’t appreciate and love me?” (pause) I feel the wheels turning in my head as scene after scene is played of loving kind acts, words telling me how loved and appreciated I am and soon I’m feeling a smile spread onto my face. The bitter taste has turned to sweetness and my heart is full of gratitude for how special my family is to me every day.

I have received a great and loving gift . . . the gift of awareness. I feel this gift deep in my heart – can feel my heart swell and open wider to allow more room to grow. I can taste the sweetness and know it will serve me for many Mother’s Day to come.

“Hello ego . . . meet my heart and soul. You are learning to work together to teach each other a better and more loving way to exist and thrive”. Tears gently trickle down my cheeks as I turn to make breakfast for myself.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the millions of mother’s around the world. May everyday be special for you.

Soul Hugs!
Marianne

Peace and Centering In An Unlikely Place

Friday, April 24th, 2009

Guess what I found in the dish water?

Have you ever had one of those weeks where it all is just too big? It is almost as if I started the week half holding my breath and knowing that this was going to be a really full and busy week. Not the kind of week you find yourself looking forward too, rather the kind you hear about from a friend and think “why would anyone schedule their week so full?”. Last week was like that for me. I think it becomes even more painful when you realize how off center you are. Last week I was so far off center that a feather could have knocked me over. That is when I realized the dishwasher was on its last leg. Bless its heart; we have been gently nudging it along since we bought our home because it was the only item of modern convenience that greeted us. We purchased a 1910 Victorian farmhouse that was in desperate need of renovation. The dishwasher was a thoroughly welcome sight amidst the 1960’s electric stove and lack of microwave or refrigerator.

With the dishwasher broken I had 2 huge loads of dishes to wash by hand and no time to think about throwing a fit. As the hot water filled the sink the soap suds grew and expanded leaving a luxurious pillowy cloud in which I plunged my hands and furiously began scrubbing dishes. Not sure how many dishes I had scoured when my Pleasure Meter (see my blog It Pegged My Pleasure Meter) started to remember how nurturing and therapeutic washing dishes by hand can be. I found myself watching a squirrel in the yard as she (I’m assuming based on how she was multi-tasking so efficiently) scurried down the tree checking and digging up what seemed to be a pecan nut. All the while she was moving so thoughtfully and going about her duties while keeping a vigilant eye out for Murphy, her most annoying predator and my fearless Irish terrier. A bird caught my attention as it swooped across the window and landed just below the outer window sill on my heirloom rose bush. The brilliant red of the Cardinal made me catch my breath and giggle with amusement as he (nature has a way of making the males so beautiful . . . almost unfair) primped and sang with pleasure. A deep sigh escaped my lips and I realized it was the first deep breath I had taken in hours.

So this is why it is preferable to have a kitchen window over the sink. I realized how many women through time had gazed out their kitchen windows while washing the dishes and somehow felt connected to them all. . . a part of the domestic goddess club.

So what did I find in the dishwater? I found the peace and centering that comes from being in the moment. From this awareness I began to enjoy washing the dishes, feeling the warm water wash over my hands and wrists. I imagined washing away my stress, the events of the week that had been less than enjoyable and thanked that sink full of suds for bringing me into the moment with joy.

When was the last time you washed the dishes by hand? I would love to hear about what treasures you found in the dishwater.

Soul Hugs!

Marianne

The Power of Pause

Monday, April 20th, 2009

Today I enjoyed my cup of tea in a new area of my home. From where I sat the steam rising off the hot liquid created steam – except this time it was back-lit by the brilliance of a new days sunshine streaming through my window. This moment of pause is where the magic could be seen.

Silky ribbons of steam rose in opulent swirls dancing and darting about. There was such clarity I could actually see the individual droplet of moisture creating steam! I was mesmerized and in awe as this elegant dance of water, air and sunshine performed its ceremony. I was for this moment seeing . . . really seeing what beauty a cup of tea could bring into my day.

Regret crept into my moment as I realized how many cups I have held and never really taken pause – never really been present enough to see. Then the regret evolved into excitement as I thought of how many more cups of tea were to come. I will never look at a steaming cup the same again. Notice how interesting it is how our mind loves to interrupt the present moment with thoughts of the past or future.

Today have you paused to really see the world around you? Stop now and notice the movement of air (can you see or feel it?) – the sun and where her rays of light are visible. This simple pause can instantly fill you with childlike wonder and joy. Our bodies love a pause, while sometimes our mind goes crazy with the slowing down. How is your mind responding to you pausing? How is your body responding?

Allow yourself moments of pause and share with me what you noticed in a whole new way.

Soul Hugs!
Marianne