Where is my breakfast in bed?
Morning clouds have cleared and a soft blue sky break through surrounding me with wide open space. I take a long and deep breathe, filling my lungs with the warm morning air of Texas.
It is Mother’s Day . . . my day because I am a mother too. All is quiet in the MacKenzie home . . . my husband is golfing and my son is still sleeping. In preparation for a big move to the city, we have found new homes for each of our pets (more on that later). So, not even a happy tail or purring cat are here to wish me Happy Mother’s Day . . . and by the way I think, “where is my breakfast in bed”?
With this thought I feel a familiar unappreciated sense starting deep in my hips and gurgling upward. The picture in my mind growing clearer and more vivid of the familiar commercials with loving children bursting through the door to mommy’s room with breakfast on a tray. “Wake up mommy” they chime in unison with father lingering behind in the doorway sporting a mischievous grin. So! Where is my breakfast in bed? Don’t you love me and appreciate all the many motherly things I do for you? Now the feeling has gurgled so high I can taste the bitterness of the emotion. I’m not loved! I’m not appreciated! Wow, how quickly that one moved into my senses. I could actually see the commercial hear the loving words (that I’m not hearing right now) and feel what the emotions feels like of not being loved this way. Not to mention the taste – oh the awful taste of not feeling loved.
“STOP! “ I say audible only to myself. “This doesn’t feel the way I want to feel”.
So I ask myself, “Is it true? Is it true that my family doesn’t appreciate and love me?” (pause) I feel the wheels turning in my head as scene after scene is played of loving kind acts, words telling me how loved and appreciated I am and soon I’m feeling a smile spread onto my face. The bitter taste has turned to sweetness and my heart is full of gratitude for how special my family is to me every day.
I have received a great and loving gift . . . the gift of awareness. I feel this gift deep in my heart – can feel my heart swell and open wider to allow more room to grow. I can taste the sweetness and know it will serve me for many Mother’s Day to come.
“Hello ego . . . meet my heart and soul. You are learning to work together to teach each other a better and more loving way to exist and thrive”. Tears gently trickle down my cheeks as I turn to make breakfast for myself.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the millions of mother’s around the world. May everyday be special for you.
Soul Hugs!
Marianne

